I was in a spin class the other day, and it was tough. This wasn’t my first class, and I had been going every week or so for a few weeks, so my body knew what was coming. I found myself starting to get down on myself, you know the familiar script ‘you shouldn’t be here’, ‘you’re not good at this’, ‘everyone is looking at you.’
Now I fully admit, I am not good at spin. I’m pretty sure it’s my lack of musical understanding, but I am often off beat, and am about a step and a half behind. I know this about myself, and I choose to still go because I enjoy the workout. I like leaving spin class, both feeling utterly exhausted and like I can take on the world.
This past week, with the negative script running through my head, wasn’t usual for me. But I heard myself. I heard the script, and thought, well that’s garbage Karyn. You’re here. I could have stayed in bed, or just moved to the couch, but instead I left my warm and comfy bed, made it down to spin class and if nothing else, I showed up. Even if my workout wasn’t strong, I showed up. And showing up next time is going to be easier too. We put a lot of pressure on ourselves, and while yes, it can be very motivating, it can also be incredibly de-motivating. Next time you find something not going well, I encourage you to take a step back and give yourself kudos for taking the first step to show up.
As a Registered Psychologist, I have experience helping people with a variety of concerns including, but not limited to stress, anxiety, depression, self-esteem, parenting, and relationships. Together, we will use cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT), and collaborate to find the thoughts and actions creating obstacles in your life, test them out, and combat them to decide if they’re helping or hindering you. Most of all, I want to help you reach your potential, and make the way there a little easier.